Is My Pastor Hooked On Porn?

In Addictions, Desire, Formation, Loneliness, Men Against Porn, Ministry, Pornography by BizgaineyLeave a Comment

Do you know where your pastor is right now?

Do you know what he or she is doing, this very moment?

Of course, you don’t.  Most of us don’t know where (unless they are actually with us) our spouse or children are at this precise moment.  We don’t truly know what they are doing, nor do we know with whom they are doing whatever they are doing.

We could venture an educated guess or two and, perhaps, get close.

If you were to ‘guess’ what your pastor is doing, right …
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With Desire So Demanding, Why is God So Distant?

In Desire, Discipleship, Formation, Freedom, Fully Awake, Purpose and Meaning, Spiritual Formation, Surrender by Bizgainey1 Comment

The first month of a new year is often a time of expectancy and hope. The onset of the new year typically provides a few weeks during which we celebrate the goodness of God, the faithful promise keeper! We carry with us new visions of satisfaction; replacing yesterday’s memories of despair and hunger. Indeed, we hope – at least in some measure – to discover satisfaction and fulfillment in the year ahead. That’s why I have spent the bulk of January reflecting on the nature and nurture of soul satisfying …
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Desire Four: Look Up and LEAN IN!!

In Contemplation, Desire, Discipleship, Formation, Fully Awake, Spiritual Formation by BizgaineyLeave a Comment

Gary Turk – writer, filmmaker and award-winning producer – watched his cultural capital soar through the roof with the global success of Look Up. Look Up is a spoken word narrative, set to film, that exposes the shortcomings of a society addicted to technology. One of my favorite lyrics in the poem/song speaks to the longing for connection we desire and the lack of intimacy we experience; describing the outcome of generation raised in our techno-zombie age:

“We’re surrounded by children, who since they were born, watch us living like …
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The Long Journey Home: 2016’s Desires, Part 2!

In Desire, Discipleship, Formation, Prayer, Purpose and Meaning by BizgaineyLeave a Comment

“But the things that began to happen after that were so great and beautiful that I cannot write them.”

The above quote is the way C.S. Lewis begins the closing pages of his final book in the Chronicles of Narnia Series, The Last Battle.  The Last Battle is my favorite of the Narnia series!  Lewis goes on to say – in painting his picture of heaven,  “And for us this is the end of all the stories, and we can most truly say that they all lived happily ever after. …
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Resolutions? No Mas. 2016 is about Life Shaping Desire!

In Desire, Discipleship, Fully Awake, Habits, Spiritual Formation, Surrender, Thanksgiving by Bizgainey3 Comments

2016 Resolutions?  I resolve to remain unresolved!  How’s that??

No mas!  I’m done!  Uncle!  I am, in modern vernacular, tapping out.

I considered putting ink to paper and developing a resolution or two.  Then I spied March’s dissolution in the fogged over windshield of life’s hyped up, over maxed, half-baked January resolution.  Such foresight has given me the wisdom to say no more to the resolution parade.

This year, rather than a long list of short lived resolutions, I am spending some time Reflecting on Life Shaping Desire.  These reflections …
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Porn: Three Ways to Keep that “Gift” in it’s Box!!

In Advent, Brokenness, Christmas, Community, Desire, Formation, Habits, Pornography by Bizgainey2 Comments

This time of year – the Thanksgiving through mid-January holiday season (because the college bowl season has become its own holiday) –  is a particularly vibrant season for many of us.

Extended holiday seasons provide space to celebrate life and the loved ones with whom we live.  They are dotted with parties, engagements, gift – giving, year-end bonuses, festive feasts, etc.

While Holidays can offer joy and celebration, they also produce emotions ranging from anxiety and anger to stress and depression.  Many of these negative emotions are kept at bay …
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An Inconvenient God

In Addictions, Consumption, Culture, Desire, Discipleship, Formation by Bizgainey3 Comments

I love convenience.  From pulling up to the pump and conveniently swiping my card to the ten item or less aisle in the grocery store – I LOVE convenience.

In fact, on those rare occasions when the ‘pay at the pump’ service isn’t provided, I have actually climbed back into my vehicle and driven to another location.  I wonder if my love for convenience produces some unintended consequences?  More pointedly, I wonder if my desire for convenience results in impatience and intolerance?

I venture a guess that I am not …
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Advent – Unearthing and Aiming Desire as We Wait on and Watch for Him!

In Advent, Consumption, Desire, Discipleship, Formation by Bizgainey1 Comment

C.S. Lewis, in Mere Christianity, suggests that we are a people of deep and unending desire (https://www.cslewis.com/us).  He further states that our unending quest for satisfaction reveals a deeper and often confounding truth about what it means to be human; what it means to be whole!

“If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world. If none of my earthly pleasures satisfy it, that does not prove that the universe is a…
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Sacred, Soul-Full, Satisfying!

In Christmas, Consumption, Culture, Desire, Formation, Thanksgiving by BizgaineyLeave a Comment

“For He satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul He fills with good things.” Psalm 107:9

The human heart beats to a rhythm known as longing. It is this rhythm that much of our society has learned to capitalize on and, in turn, make a profit. Indeed, the consumerist urge that drives the season of Christmas is simply another expression of longing and an example of our society’s ability to leverage that longing into a transaction that will leave us longing for more.

Every year, it seems, the Christmas …
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