Can My Brokenness Become A Beacon?

In Brokenness, Fully Awake, Habits, Purpose and Meaning, Spiritual Formation, Surrender by Bizgainey2 Comments

This week I have been reading Ruth Barton’s book, Pursuing God’s Will Together.  One section – of this important and insightful read – has been particularly eye-opening.  Ruth describes some of the values she and the Transforming Center are committed to practicing together. Her words encourage us to be honest with ourselves and the story God is writing in and through us.  Her encouragement, has particular relevance to spiritual leadership; the conviction, compassion, and concern we show to those around us!  On pages, 100 – 102, she writes,

“Closely related …
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The Boys of Summer and The Shape of Our Soul!

In Contemplation, Discipleship, Habits, Spiritual Formation by Bizgainey3 Comments

The longer I live, the more I believe the statement pictured above. What we do shapes who we become. Experience proves this to be true time and time again. Most of us believe that our habits or practices reveal what’s in our heart. That may be true, but it fails to acknowledge that our habits also shape our heart!

Baseball season is in full swing, and I love it! I believe baseball is the most aesthetic of all sports. There is an internal – intrinsic – beauty to the rhythm …
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March Madness and The Improbable Union of Discipline and Delight

In Discipleship, March Madness, Spiritual Formation, Uncategorized by Bizgainey3 Comments

“The world is not lacking in God’s self-disclosing beauty and ever-present joy, but in attentiveness to God’s self-disclosing beauty and ever-present joy.”

I concluded last week’s post with the above quote.   Essentially urging that God is not absent from us but it is we who are absent from God.  I then asked a question (captured in the image below) I have been considering at great length these days.

In order to move forward on this journey of discovering the self-disclosing beauty of God, I find it helpful to …
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What if?

In Spiritual Formation, Uncategorized by BizgaineyLeave a Comment

There are moments, even seasons, in my life when my desire feels ravenous.  As if I am simply never satisfied.  Ever craving bigger, better, more!  I use the term ravenous to mean intensely eager for satisfaction or gratification.  I have utilized much of my blog space to discuss and/consider the prevalence of desire in the human soul.

We can all probably agree, at least on some level, that much of our decisions are based on, and  many of our daydreams are lost in desire.  It’s rare that I find myself …
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Transforming Community: The Ongoing Project of Us!

In Community, Spiritual Formation by Bizgainey2 Comments

My children are all teenagers. As such, I am no longer on edge when they are near a hot stove. I no longer fear they will reach out and touch the glimmering light on the stove top.

Why? Because, by now, they have experienced enough of life to know that fire burns.

How? Because my wife and I taught them at a young age: If you touch something hot, you will get burned.

C.S. Lewis called this subduing the soul to reality. That is, ordering life around what we know …
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Happy Birthday Pillar: Celebrating Four Years of Soul Keeping and Spiritual Formation!

In Justice, Ministry, Spiritual Formation by BizgaineyLeave a Comment

Though we hope seekers will find a warm place in our gathering, we will not target them, focus on them or make them the end all be all of our ministry. Rather, we will focus on the soul and the ways in which the soul is shaped so that we desire what Christ desires and long for His will in our life. Soul craft is how I like to describe it.

aha ~ I Am An Ever Firing Furnace of Desire!

In Cancer, Freedom, Spiritual Formation by Bizgainey2 Comments

“In the torment of the insufficiency of everything attainable we eventually learn that here, in this life, all symphonies remain unfinished.”~Karl Rahner

In his wonderful book, Against An Infinite Horizon, Ron Rolheiser opens with this quote from Rahner. A failure to comprehend the truth behind this quote is to risk a life lost to reckless wandering: an unending and exhausting quest for the next person, place or possibility to satisfy the hunger in our soul. To understand this, however, is to be one who, at last, has come to realize …
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Moment of Awakening #3, An Evening at the Grill

In Cancer, Freedom, Marriage, Spiritual Formation, Uncategorized by Bizgainey2 Comments

I recall a mild November evening in 2009 when God and I communed.  I was at the grill preparing our evening meal. God was in the sky doing his thing: painting a brilliant and multi-dimensional sunset that brought delight to my eyes.  Here, on this holy ground of nowhere,¹ I encountered a moment that would encounter all moments!

My first moment of awakening revolves around my journey out of porn addiction and can be found at the following link: http://disruptusrenovatus.wordpress.com/2014/11/04/a-grime-ridden-grace-filled-moment-a-personal-story-of-transformation/

My second moment of awakening centers on my wife’s diagnosis …
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Moments of Awakening: Moment #2, “Melissa has Lymphoma”

In Cancer, Freedom, Marriage, Spiritual Formation by Bizgainey6 Comments

Melissa and I have never communicated this portion of our journey with anyone until now.

Even as I typed this post, tears gathered in my eyes.  Reminding me of the potency of this moment; a moment draped in meaning.

Monday, March 12th 2007, the day before my 38th birthday.

I remember this day as if it were yesterday.  I was awaiting a phone call. My whole family was awaiting a phone call.  You might suspect the call was one of birthday wishes.  Not this time.  Rather, were awaiting a …
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